And as the sand kept counting down our time, I became an afterthought.
Nicke Borg Homeland – end of the rainbow
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Nicke Borg is the singer/songwriter of the band Backyard Babies
Please enjoy the music.
I surprised myself with this tweet and its truth.
I am made of music and melodies
Of movies and quotes
Of pictures and memories
I am made of words and books.
Through my body flows blood and ink
Curiosity and inspiration
Fantasy and imagination
Through my body flows lightness and darkness.
Inhale / exhale
Eat / drink
Asleep / awake
Everything / nothing.
I am intense and push you away
I am sensitive and want you to stay
I am sensual and have a lusty heart, but
I am also a fragile piece of art.
I left my heart in a box on your doorstep. I don’t know if you will ever find it, or have use for it; but I don’t need it anymore. It is yours to keep.
I was sprawled in a t-shirt and panties on the couch when you came in. My day had been long, and all I wanted was some time without responsibilities or demands. Mind off. I smelled the smoke, alcohol, and sweat from where I was lunging; raising an eyebrow but keeping my mouth shut, I smirked. You looked delicious. Like sex on legs. I knew better than to distract you with non-sense when you came home from work late at night in this state. I kept my eyes on the TV show that hadn’t kept my attention at all, but it had kept me company when you were at work. I licked my lips. Your mere presence did things to me.
You shrugged out of your jacket and hung it on the back of a chair before you flopped down next to me on the couch, yawning loudly. Our thighs were touching, and your presence became more than you sitting next to me. I could feel you around me, invading my mind, and the need to feel you in me rose.
You took the remote control and muted the TV. I looked at you, not sure about your expectations. Your eyes scrutinized me, stripping me as you took in my sight. I was not presentable anymore – I was lazy and enjoying my night on my own. Dressed in a bare minimum and with my hair in disarray, I became aware of how unattractive I looked. In a weak attempt to straighten my appearance, I ran my hands through my hair, closed my legs, and tried to find another position, arranging my limbs differently. You chuckled, and hooking your arms under my knees; you pulled me down on the couch and closer to your wanting body – without question not warning.
I saw it in your eyes, the familiar heat. And I knew I was lost. I was drowning in the black depth of your eyes. Nothing could prevent the inevitable.
You were everywhere. One moment we sat on the couch, the next your body covered mine. My clothes were removed with an urgency that left no place for doubt – you wanted to make me cum. And I had no other choice than to endure your sweet torture.
You pulled your belt from your jeans and tied my hands together. Growling, you took my mouth with yours. There was no finesse, no tenderness. I was your toy.
Your tongue began a trail down my heated skin. And I let it happen. Too wrapped up in past memories – past climaxes; the anticipation aroused me more than your demanding kisses or your calloused hands did.
Your fingers found my soaking wet sex and entered me with ease. I was ready for you, willing you to love me. You hit that one spot inside of me that made my breath hitch and my back arch. Gasping, my body tried to suck you in, to coax more pleasure from you. But you denied it. At your mercy, I was begging, pleading… The heat. The tingle. The building orgasm that was consuming me, and yet, it was just out of reach. It was just a flick of your tongue away. I was sweating; my hands tried to claw at something, anything within reach, but your belt around my wrists – the restraint prevented it. And it frustrated me.
“Please, ” I panted. Your tongue replaced your fingers, lapping at my pussy, your hands squeezed my breasts. The wave of pleasure made goosebumps rise all over my body. And I gave in. I voiced my imminent release, spurring you on, praising you, cursing, moaning, growling, asking you to allow me some release.
Relentless, you kept sucking and kissing and licking me. Everything in me tensed, my cunt quivered, my clit couldn’t take the onslaught of your tongue anymore, and I exploded. My back arched, my knees pulled back… Throbbing, shaking – I came for you. Blinded by pleasure, I couldn’t see, I couldn’t think. I wasn’t sure if I was still existing or if I had burst into fragments of myself.
My orgasm was endless, and you didn’t let go. I came, again and again, unable to catch my breath, unable to pull myself together.
Under you, I came undone. Under your thumb, I lost control. And while I was still recovering from one, two, many climaxes, you filled me with your cock.
Kissing me, I tasted myself on your tongue. I wrapped my legs around your hips, urging you to move faster. I couldn’t decide what was more intoxicating: your sweat, our sex, the silent noise around us… It didn’t matter, all that mattered was the hard and fast in and out and the sounds our bodies made.
I was made to please you. And I came again, like a shock wave, I took you with me. I felt the spasms in me, and I opened my eyes just in time to see the pure you. There were no masks, no hiding, just the truth about you.
We became one. You in me. You my future. And all I wanted was to love you. Fragile. Vulnerable. Craving you. Submitting to you.
You released the restraints around my wrists, and I fell back against the couch again. Boneless. You followed me. The weight of your spent body crushed me, but I knew you needed this. I was not sure if you were sobbing or chuckling with your face buried against my neck, but I held you close. Our skins dried and were stuck together – yes, we were one. Pure. My hands roamed up and down your back. “I got you, ” I whispered.
Exhausted, we made our way to the bathroom to clean up. I loved dominating quickies like the one we had just shared. And I loved you because whenever we were together, you sent me to heaven, and when we were apart, I was in hell. 💜
I am looking at you with new eyes
Trying to understand who is hiding under this disguise
Was it me all along?
And what about that new song?
I am standing in the rain
Hoping that it will wash my blindness down the drain
Was it me all along?
And were your emotions that strong?
I am listening to your voice
Hearing that you never had any other choice
Was it me all along?
And were all the others wrong?
I am melting against your touch
Understanding what you confessed; very much
It was me all along!
And in your arms, I do belong!
All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain.
Time to die.
Words said by this awesome Dutch actor in the movie Blade Runner. Rutger Hauer was 75 years old.
I was drowning but taught myself how to swim
I had all the tools I needed locked somewhere within
It was hard to breathe, to move, and to be
But finally, the ocean released me; free.
I was emerging stronger and brighter than before
I fought hard until I reached the safe shore
The change didn’t happen over night, and I am afraid it will not last;
But there is light, even though I remember the past.
I am afraid to rise and to fall; to lose it all
There is a crack in the wall; and right now, it is still small
But someday, I will be freed of my mind and not hiding within
Although I know well that to drown is easier than to swim.